Roz made a video:

So Max is gone. We euthanised him last night. We found out he had bone cancer in his shoulder area about ten weeks ago. Take into account that he's twelve, has a bum liver, is epileptic, and already has a weak, stiff backend there wasn't much that could be done aside from pain medication and spoiling him till he was ready to go. He literally was on his last leg.

I keep forgetting he's not here. I woke up this morning and looked to the foot of the bed to say morning to him. I went to leave for the barn and I thought "better take Max out first". I went downstairs and almost asked my mom if someone let him out. I went upstairs with food and turned around to tell him to stay downstairs cause he always follows and mooches left overs. I think it will be awhile before I say "I had a dog that..." instead of "I have a dog...".

The past couple of weeks he changed from his normal happy self to just pretty much the shell of Max. I think he only held out the last two weeks because he knew we all wanted to be with him for his final day (my parents were gone for two weeks with family in Newfoundland). He was ready to go last night and I can only hope that he's been restored to his younger self and he no longer hurts.

I'm gonna miss him like hell.

( A load of pictures. )

"My heart has joined the thousand, for my friend stopped running today."

I would be very very happy with one like this.

The other day I posted some picture of my bruised leg and some post gelded horse pictures.

I bring you more pictures of my bruise...which is...party colored...

( Bruise )

One of the horses at the barn my horse is at got gelded the other day. The day I went up they took the clamps off.

( Buhlooood, and horse bits. )

This song...it just makes me grin like an idiot even when I feel shitty.

I am almost 22 years old. I should be saving money...looking towards moving out or something, or a new car...or savings, or just being all around grown up and somewhat responsible...

BUT NO.

I want a pony instead. So I kinda bought a horse (and for this, I blame Roz).

( Zeus )

I haven't posted in so long, but no one reads it really so who cares (although I did get an anonymous "fuck you", nice eh? It did have a smiley face at least...). Anyways, I'd like to say that things are awesome and great and all that shit, but really now? Are ANY of my posts like that? Nah. I have however been sick, randomly, my stomach has decided that in the middle of the night its gonna cramp up hardcore and keep me awake for a bit. I've been anxious and had a week of like, lame panic attacky feelings pretty much everyday. Thankfully that has stopped a bit...but not the anxious feeling. Basically, I am crazy.

I've been working as the only groomer now for about a month (they fired the girl I worked with a few days before Christmas). My boss runs the new store and I basically run the old one. Its kind of lonely and I wish there was a cool groomer or assistant that I could be better friends with during work. It is nice however when I think of the fact that I am the MAIN groomer there and they rely on my to make sure the job is done and done nice. I even had one of our more difficult clients tell me that he would follow me with his mean little dog if I left because I'm good with his little baby.

I'm gonna post pictures of doggies now...

( Doggy Bounce )

I'll add in that I've been feeling pretty damn pathetic and lame lately and lonely and clingy.

But you know what helps?


They're gonna be at Massey Hall in April...but the cheapest tickets are 140$ and do I really wanna pay that much to see two kiwis? (yes). But who will go with me!?

*grumble*

I feel like I have so many things to do in regards to Christmas and what not and getting presents and yet no time or drive to do it. Although today I made some christmas cards that are kind of cute. I think I wanna start being crafty again. And by again...I mean, start.

More work pictures!

( Pictures! )

I want to read The Dogs of Babel again but that means stopping and interupting my current Enders Game etc. binge that I am on. I'm reading Enders Shadow now...and Bean just annoys me. I want Ender back...FYI. I'm totally naming my dog Ender. AND his number one trick will be...Ender, which way is the enemies gate? AND THEN HE WILL LIE DOWN. (Therefore, the answer is "down".) Anyone that has read Enders Game will understand. It is dorky and cute, in my opinion.

=3

So I haven't posted in ages. Whatev.

Anyways, I should post, but I'm fairly lazy and do not have much of anything to say or talk about (thats a lie...). So I'm gonna post some photos of my job. Therefore you get a few before and after photos of the dogs that I've groomed and styled. Huzzah.

( Pictures )

I want this:


Or...all of these: http://www.detailstoys.com/collars.html

And. Convo win.

Melissa~says: How do you deal with us?
Kendall says: I just have to find the balance.
Melissa~says: And the scale is my cock.
Melissa~says: Is what you should have said.

But wait, theres more! Actually, from Jacq, but amusing none the less.

kendall says: you and melissa can take me on a date.
|| Jacqueline || says: psh
kendall says: i will sit there and
kendall says look pretty
|| Jacqueline || says: how about melissa and I take each other on a date
|| Jacqueline || says: and you may tag along
kendall says: ..
Melissa~:WIN
Melissa~:YOU WON THAT ONE

So apparently posting will activate more comments. THREE OF THEM, which is awesome considering thats pretty much my whole friends list...hahaha.

I haven't gone swimming all summer. How fucking lame is that? Except maybe not so much considering I also haven't done anything to make myself look sexah in a bathing suit, although I'll be honest, I'm a lazyass and never do. *shrug*

Currently I spend most of my time at work, then watching House and thinking of more things I want to download...Kendall should have never shown me how to torrent things. He also never should have given me Spore...now I hardly leave my room. Aside from leaving to play Catan with him and Jacq. My nerd levels are higher then ever. I dont know if thats a good or bad thing but I dont really care.

I want to start riding again but I want money more...

Sharks are awesome.

I'm gonna try to make more posts. Not better, just more. Also, I think I've made this exact same post.

=D

I'm waiting for a chance to Bel-air someone...

Alright, so Jacq told me I am required to make a post. Which isnt that bad considering I was planning too. Except, I'm lazy and the mood is lost. You see, this morning while driving to work I was all "You know what, I'm happy. I think, I mean, right now, I am currently content." So I was gonna make a post that was all YAY...but no. I changed my mind. Next time the mood hits and I'm compelled to make a post I probably won't then either...which is really a good thing cause usually I'm tempted to make a post when I'm feeling all emo and shit.

Anyways, I had my first real practical grooming test. I've had a few type of tests but this is the first one where I have to do everything including the trimming and styling of the dog. Luckily its a very good dog and didnt have an excess amount of fur.

( Pictures )

So I'm gonna post some more shit but I'm lazy and I hurt my shoulder. Or at least my shoulder hurts, because I've been lazy and just lying in bed using the interwebs and watching House.

<3

I really really really hope he's my boomerang.

Myles told me that when he worked Tech Support they had to stop giving service to a few customers that would call in each night with the same problem. Turns out it was because they broke the same thing over and over again just so they would have a reason to call. Cause it was night and they were lonely and wanted someone to talk too.

I feel like that.

Oh Christ, I'm not that desperate. says:
Can I see you tomorrow so that I am not sad and lonely?
|| Jacqueline || says:
YOU BITCH
|| Jacqueline || says:
.........
|| Jacqueline || says:
AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA
|| Jacqueline || says:
I mean to write "YO". AHAHAHHA that makes a difference

I've been feeling pretty shitty the past couple of days.

I fucking miss James. I miss my best friend and stuff.

I think, I'd even make an exception to the rules and not kill him if he were a zombie.

And well...I like this comic:

Melissa says:
Disrobe? But you are not wearing a robe.
Myles says:
lol
Myles says:
disclothe?
Melissa says:
Do you have a robe?
Myles says:
nor a wizard hat?
Melissa says:
I put on my cloak and wizard hat?
Myles says:
^_^
Melissa says:
And cast my level five...
Melissa says:
Is that what you were getting at?
Myles says:
lol <3 bloodninja =)
Melissa says:
AHAHAH
Melissa says:
Sweet